Posts Tagged ‘Mercy’

Ever been in a crisis
A crisis too deep you don’t know how to get out
A self-inflicted crisis with murderous results
A crisis you saw coming but chose to ignore?

Now ever been in a spiritual crisis
Where day and night you wonder if you are still in the faith
And to drown that still small voice telling you where to go
You indulge in what your depraved soul knows best – sin
Ever been in a spiritual crisis?

That you need the word so badly but feel like you’ve gone too far to be redeemed
And so again instead of climbing out, You dig yourself deeper into the pit
You know the way out but walking in it suddenly seems so hard
You don’t know who to reach out to or how to
Scratch that, you know exactly who to reach out to but wonder if they’ll ever understand coz you can’t even explain it
If they’ll look past your wandering and feed you with the word you so deeply desire
Because after all is said and done, you realise it’s all vanity
Why would I gain the whole world and lose my soul
Why would I gain the appeal of man only to be disowned by my Maker
Why would temporary pleasures satisfy, or rather feel like they satisfy when in reality they are killing me
Why gain that relationship and lose out on the one that matters most
Why would I do all these and yet I am a Christian
How did I go these far, how did I miss the signs
Is this indwelling sin or have I just lost it
Because if I’m to be judged by my fruits God knows I won’t pass any test?

Yet deep within the thirst is still there
My soul deeply longs and groans for Him
He still seeks me upto now
I know I’m able to see I’m in a crisis because His grace still saves
But I’m too weak to get myself out of this mess
The cross seems so far to reach to
But my heart, Oh my heart, wants to fall upon it
To leave everything else and cling to it
To never look back again because this pit is ugly
To lift my eyes to God and cry ‘Father forgive me’
Cause’ much as I try to fight it
I know this is the Christian I’m not.

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Life sets us on a journey to the unknown,
Through means not of our own we find ourselves on this road,
A road travelled by many but not many really get to the end,
What is so hard about this road called relationship,

What makes some fall flat along the way,
Where is the vigour and determination seen when the journey is starting,
The smiles and laughter that crowned our days,
The words of understanding that was communication,
The eyes of love that spoke to our hearts,
This road called relationship,

Bandits lay in wait to snatch what we have,

Sometimes we fail to jealously guard what we possess,
By the time we realise it, we are walking alone,
What happened to the tenacity that symbolised our journey,
What happened to the patience by which we survived,
What happened to the grace which held us together,
This road called relationship so long and windy,
Tell me who on earth will ever get to the end,

God knows how we need Him from start to finish,
God knows how many times we have longed to hear His voice say ‘My child hold on’
God knows how daily this road gets weary,
For it is not for the swift neither is it for the strong,
This road is meant for the weak and lowly,
This road is meant for the selfish and proud,
This road is meant for the stubborn and arrogant,
Tell me how we are to survive if such is the cast,
This road called relationship, so selfless so godly

Day in day out we cry for mercy,
Broken hearts, betrayed souls lay strewn along the wayside,
Alone we perish but with you we succeed
God help us pack for this road called relationship.