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Posted: November 19, 2013 in Letters, Poetry
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He sets out yet again, all happy & determined to make it
It’s the third time this week
You are awed by his tenacity
The downcast face and sombre look that greets you in the evening
As he looks  up to you and gives you that look
That all familiar look
You know they said no to him again

Football has always been his passion
Somehow, he never cuts the team
Finally an opportunity arises, he’s quite optimistic
Not today, that’s what the coach says
With those eyes, he walks away

No one prepared you for this
Seems yours will always be a ‘losing husband’
How do you show him he’s a winner
Your vote of confidence is all he needs


To all wives of ‘losing husbands’
Each time he gives you those eyes
He’s letting you in, exposing his vulnerability
Letting you know that only in your arms is he secure
So waste not this chance dear wives
Welcome him with love
Let him know he’s a king in his house
Don’t pity him, let him know his strengths
Be the cushion he falls on when the world beats him
Be the world to him, for if you are
It doesn’t matter what the rest think
They may brand him a looser
But you share a secret together
One that binds you forever
The reason why he gives you those eyes
The reason you are his wife
The challenge is hard but take it confidently
After all, you are his woman


Will You Love Me Tomorrow?

Posted: November 18, 2013 in Letters, Poetry
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Will you love me tomorrow
When I fall short from your graces again
When time and time again
I find new ways to hurt you
When my words of apology
Are just rehearsed lines for the play
When I fail to deliver on a promise
When I’m too weak to say no to temptation
When harsh words keep cutting deeper and harder
When I fail to play my role as your partner
When I share with you my weaknesses
When fear engulfs me and I cry out for help
When I show you that I’m just human
Will you still love me
Or would you be the first to cast a stone?

The Song of Job

Posted: February 20, 2013 in Uncategorized
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Amazing how one after the other, the messengers flooded Job’s house, each carrying his dose of bad report. I am sure all that time Job was thinking, at least my family’s fine, I can always recoup the loss but I can’t bear to loose my children. Then when he thinks it’s all over, another one walks in, ‘your sons & daughters…..’ I’m sure his thoughts probably trailed off as soon as he heard his children mentioned. He was probably thinking, ‘not my children, not my children.’

Then he comes back to & the servant finishes the message. Right now, he’s probably weak in his knees, the property loss means nothing, he’s maybe trying to reach out to something to lean on, his strength has failed him. The servants are probably thinking this guy will die of grief. Then Job arises, & contrary to what is humanly possible, he falls on the ground and worships. He worships. He doesn’t complain, he doesn’t curse, doesn’t question sovereignty but rather he worships. In the moment of turmoil, when all the natural man knows is to ask ‘why’ Job worships. Not because he was perfect, or any better but because he knew his God and by the grace of that same God he was able to lift up a song of worship.

‘Naked I came from my mother’s womb, & naked shall I return. The Lord gave, & the Lord has taken away, blessed be the name of the Lord.’

What song comes out of your lips when terror strikes? What does it say about you, about your God?

Grace & Peace


Posted: November 23, 2012 in Uncategorized
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Grace to you,

The birth of this post has been created by a tweet I updated sometime back stating the same, ‘All is for his glory.’ I got an interjection from a friend who did not think that was the case since so much evil is happening that could not be bringing God glory. I never answered her because I intended to do it in a blogpost way. After a month or so, here it is *sorry for the delay*

It is impossible to talk about the glory of God without mentioning his supremacy thereof. In Psalms 115 & 135 we are told that our God is in the heavens and he does what he pleases and in another place, he created all things for his pleasure. That is in regard to his supremacy. If there is one thing that we can say is possibly the heart of God is his glory. That is why he says he will share it with no other.

Question: Would a sovereign God jealously guarding his glory, do anything that would result in quite the opposite?

My friend said there exists a lot of evil that could possibly not be bringing God glory. You might concur because it makes sense, but what does the bible say about this? I will give you only four verses that state otherwise:

Lamentation 3:37-39 ‘Who has spoken and it came to pass, unless the Lord commanded it? Is it not from the mouth of the Most High that good and bad come?’

Amos 3:6b ‘Does disaster come to a city unless the Lord has done it?’

Job 2:10b ‘Shall we receive good from God and not receive evil?’

1 Samuel 2:6-11 Basically talks of both good and evil coming from the hand of God. (Read it)

If God reigns as sovereign (supreme) over the world, and worketh all things after the counsel of his own will, then the evil of the world is not outside his design. Get this though, all things are from God but Satan is the agent of all evil. There is no evil in God. The evil Satan does is only by permission from God as in Job’s case. Guess we now see who truly runs the world! 🙂 The crucifixion of Christ was a moral evil but who got the glory, God. Everything had happened according to the definite plan and foreknowledge of God. Many sons were brought to glory (salvation) thus man was redeemed.

As John Piper would say, the hardened disobedience of mens hearts leads not to the frustration of God’s plan but their fruition. In short, God is glorified even in the evil. Joseph is another good example. What his brothers did was evil but God had already foreseen the future, knew there was a famine coming and Joseph was the tool to preserve the Israelites. That is why he tells them they meant it for bad but God turned it to good.

Of him and through him and to him are all things. That means God governs us and everything we do is for His glory. With that, I end my thoughts. I pray that we learn to see the hand of God in everything that happens around us. 


Grace & Peace


I was talking to a good pal of mine yesterday about what they were taught on Sunday in some church meeting. She willingly indulged me in the details of the meeting, God bless her. Unfortunately, most of what she told me they were taught and the lessons she got, were unbiblical truths. I decided to do a write up of what they were taught using what she gave and give the biblical view of it. Correct me where I am biblically wrong. Read on:


They were taught about curses, their origins and how they extend to the third and fourth generation. They were told to confess and repent of the sins of their forefathers, grandparents, great-grandparents for anything they might have done that may/will follow them presently in their lifetime. Below are the scriptural references read to them to support that:

a) Lam.5:7 – Our fathers sinned and are no more, and we bear their iniquities

b) Exodus 34:7, Numbers 14:18 & Jeremiah 32:18 – Which talk of how God will visit the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children’s children to the third and fourth generation.

c) They were then told the story of Daniel and how the situation they were in was because of the sins of their forefathers.

What is the Correct Biblical Interpretation (Exegisis)?

Lamentations 5:7 was very true. The Israelites were in exile and it was because both they and their forefathers had sinned against the Lord and God had in turn punished them.  If you read the whole chapter, you will see that it is actually a prayer for God to restore them. We see the events that led to this in Jer.25 where Jeremiah calls the people of Judah and gives them a word from the Lord, telling them how they are going to captivity because they had disobeyed the words of the Lord repeatedly.  The captivity period was to last 70years.  Then in Jer.29, Jeremiah writes a letter to the exiles telling them what the Lord required of them in their country of exile and that’s where we find the infamous verse of, ‘For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord……’ God’s plan was that even though they were in captivity at that time, he was giving them hope in that letter and assuring them of his plan to deliver them come the 70years. God was faithful to his word and delivered them at that exact time, not two years later as my pal was told. We read clearly in Daniel 9 that after Daniel perceived the number of years (70) that God had set, implying that either it was the 70th year or thereabouts, he turned to God in repentance and asking for mercy. God delivered the Israelites not because Daniel had prayed, but because that was His plan from the beginning and He had made it so clear to them.

What about Ex.34:7, Num.14:18 & Jer.32:18?  They were all right at the particular time they were written but we cannot use them today. Generational curses do not exist. Why you may ask? Because God revoked that line of thinking in Ezekiel 18 where he strongly says that the proverb of the ‘father eating the sour grapes and the children feeling the bitter taste’ shall no longer be in use. He says that the SOUL THAT SINS SHALL DIE. God clearly renounces the collective responsibility and installs the individual responsibility. He further asks, ‘Yet you say, ‘Why should not the son suffer for the iniquity of the father? When the son has done what is just and right and has been careful to observe all my statutes, he shall surely live. The soul who sins shall die, The son shall not suffer for the iniquity of the father nor the father for the son. The righteousness of the righteous shall be upon himself and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon himself.’ That is the word of the Lord. This individual responsibility  was enhanced from that time to the book of Revelation. We see Rom.2:6 saying that God will render to each one according to his works.  Revelation 22:12 reiterates it by stating, ‘….. I will give each one according to what He has done. ‘ With biblical support, we can outrightly see that the  sins of your fore fathers (generational curses), will not follow you, every man will be judged on his own. Secondly, it just does not make sense confessing and repenting of sins of someone who is already dead and whose fate has been sealed. The only recommendation we have in the bible is, ‘Confess your sins one to another that you may obtain mercy.’ Nowhere are we told to confess the sins of our fore fathers, the best we can do is pray for our living parents and grandparent who may still be indulging in sin that they may obtain mercy.

In conclusion, curses do not trickle down to generations. If it were so, then we would also categorically say that righteousness is passed from generation to generation.  If you are in Christ, you are a new creation and Christ has taken up all your iniquities.


2. My pal is of the understanding that as Christians, we should not be struggling with sin or stuff like barrenness, disease, etc. That we should just speak to them and command them to leave because of the power within us and also because by his stripes we have been healed and Christ bore our curse. True or False?

False! Why? First, man is inherently sinful. From birth, we already are sinners. Sin came into the world through one man Rom.5 which led to condemnation for all men. That’s why Rom.3:23 says, ‘All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, while Romans 3:11-18 talks of no one on earth being righteous.’  So yes, Christ bore our curse by becoming sin that we may be righteous, Gal.3:13 talks of that. Anyone who did not keep the whole law was cursed. So all of humanity was cursed from inception since we cannot keep the law. Our first inclination is to always sin and that’s where Christ came in and bore our curse, for again it says, ‘Cursed is anyone hanged on a tree.’ In and of ourselves, we cannot do away with sin, that’s why a Saviour came.

What does the bible talk about when it says, ‘by his stripes we are healed found in Isaiah 53 and 1 Peter 2:24?’ Anyone who reads with me carefully the whole chapter will clearly see that God is not talking about sickness but sin. Isaiah says, ‘he was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities, upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace and with his stripes we are healed, all we like sheep have gone astray, we have turned everyone to his own way, and the Lord has laid the iniquity of us all.’ Peter says it abit differently, ‘He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed. For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls.’ Isaiah was prophesying what was to come while Peter was testifying of what had already happened.  We have been healed of our sins, we are no longer slaves to it and God has imputed Christ’s righteousness on us, justification, 2Corinthians 5:21.  So sin no longer controls us, how then can we explain our battle with sin?

What happens is this, though sin no longer controls us, sin still dwells in us. So a believer is not controlled by sin, the flesh, rather fights it, struggles with it and thus the whole concept of sanctification. Sanctification is the process by which a converted soul is being transformed daily into the image and likeness of Christ. You begin to abhor sin the way Christ does and you start doing the things he says you do. We are transformed in the renewal of our minds that sin no longer has dominion over us because we are under grace and that is why Paul says in Rom.6:12, ‘let not sin reign in your mortal body to make you obey its passions.’ That means sin is in you, but it should not rule over you.  Why? Because we have the Spirit of God who helps us not to gratify the desires of the flesh and to say no to all ungodliness. Because it is no longer us who live but Christ who lives in us and whose will it is that we may be sanctified, 1 Thess.4:3.  Because the fruit we get from being slaves of God is sanctification, Rom.6:22.  Rom.7, Gal.5:16-26 and James 4 shows explicitly how the battle between the flesh (indwelling sin) and the Spirit is. That is why Gal.6:1 talks of restoring a brother wh has transgressed in gentleness, because we are still struggling with sin. This indwelling sin is the kind that Paul talks of when he says, the things I want to do, I don’t do, the things I don’t want to do, I do. That is why there are so many exhortations in the bible of how to live right, walk in the Spirit, be transformed plus many others encouraging the process of sanctification, so that we may beat the desires of the flesh. You cannot just speak out sin that is an exercise in futility. You need a Saviour, you need the word. Yet not by our strength but by the grace of God.

3. Lastly, let me tackle the issue of barrenness, disease, as per the way she had referred to them above.

We live in an imperfect world and for as long as we are in this world, sufferings will be there. Any person who preaches a gospel that does not involve suffering is not of the Lord. Fortunately, we serve a loving God who has warned us of all these. He told us sufferings will come but we should stand firm because he has overcome the world. Barrenness and diseases are not curses. They can be regarded more as afflictions even though some diseases can arise out of our sinfulness. So what does the bible says about these? Rom. 5:3 says that we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame. James 1:2-4 reiterates the same point by telling us to count it all joy when we meet trials of various kinds for we know that the testing of our faith produces steadfastness and we need to let steadfastness have its full effect, that we may be perfect and complete lacking in nothing. 1 Pet.4:12 basically talks of the same, that we should not be surprised at the fiery trials that come to test us but rather we should rejoice that we share in the sufferings of Christ. The letter to the Philippians in 1:29 tells us that it has been granted to us that for the sake of Christ we should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake. Then 2 Cor.1:3-11 reminds us that we have the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our afflictions that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s suffering, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.

I do not know what kind of suffering or affliction you may be going through right now, some are for a season then the Lord does away with them, some are for a lifetime for the glory of God. Find out which one is yours, be content, rejoice and use it for the glory of God.

I hope all this has edified you and driven you to study and prayer. This was not me, trying to influence you to support my thinking but me trying to encourage us to read the bible in context that we may interpret it rightly. This was all for the purpose of edification and for the glory of God.

Grace be with you.


Posted: June 20, 2012 in Letters
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My dear beloved brother, you will probably never see this leave alone read it, but still, I will write it. I write this letter with a heavy heart and with cries and pains no words can describe because it is about you, my loving brother. I remember when we were young and dad had just gotten a transfer, it was me, you and him before the others could join us. You were a very responsible boy, played your duties as an older sibling diligently and lovingly. You would wake up early, prepare breakfast, and serve it, before rushing to school yourself. Those were the good old days.

Then you grew up, adolescence came together with its bag of challenges. I do not know if you were not too strong to overcome them or you just chose to entertain them. The sweet, handsome, bright young boy was quickly replaced by something else. Suddenly, school was an option, education became just another word and drugs became your closest friends. How you managed to finish school beats me but God has his ways. You finished but failed since you were a bright boy who chose to waste his life. You are a great thinker and quite good in literature and have your way with words, traits I have noticed. I doubt if you have seen them yourself. The transition from teenage to adulthood has been the worst. You became a great shadow of your former self. Always drinking, always smoking whilst supplementing with other drugs. You chose to hang with bad company, which surely corrupted your good morals. You began wasting away, not only physically but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. You became your own idol. Pleasing yourself at whatever costs. So many times you’ve escaped death narrowly, evaded arrest plus a myriad of things we may not know of. Do you ever see the hand of God in all these?

You drink, laugh and merry with your friends but deep down you are a tormented soul. Deep down you long for home, you long for peace, you want out. Why can’t you see it brother, you cannot do this on your own. In and by yourself there is no capacity to change for the better. It is not your life; it was given to you, why not entrust it to God the sustainer of all life? You need God brother. Do you ever see the pain you cause us, your family? Yes, you do not just affect your life but those of people around you. We tried loving you, then we became angry, anger grew to resentment and bitterness for some of us. We do not understand you. We try but we don’t. We don’t understand how you would just let yourself go, how you would waste your life, throw it all away. Many a times we have failed you as your family, many a times, we have not shown you love; we have given up on you, forgetting that we ourselves aren’t any better and it’s only by God’s grace that we are what we are. So, I pray for you brother. I pray to God that you may find solace in Him. That He may enable you to kill your idols and worship the God who sits on the throne. I pray that when the trumpet blows for you, you will be found ready. I pray salvation; I pray freedom, love and joy. I pray for us too, that we may learn to understand you, to love you, appreciate you more and show you mercy and grace just as we have received the same. I pray for you brother, because I love you and it hurts that you are wasting your life.

With these few remarks, I put my pen down and continue praying for you. Lord help me not to give up, not forgetting that salvation is from you and that what seems impossible with man you can do it. Even the vilest sinner, you can save. Therefore, I cast him in your care. To all with unbelieving family members, keep praying, keep loving and keep trusting. He who is above all shall surely come through, in His wisdom and time.

Your Loving Sister,



Grace & Peace


Posted: May 2, 2012 in Letters
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Dear Dad,

I still have a vivid account of the incident that happened that day. The date was May 20th on a Saturday, at Milimani Estate, Kakamega, 1995. I even remember what I was wearing. I was 9years old and in Class 4 in Star Academy. You had travelled to Lodwar for a business trip and you decided to pass by your daughter’s school on your way back since it was on your way home to say “hi”. But as God would have it, that was never to be. I remember our class had made so much noise and we were made to kneel down. Then my geography teacher, Mr. Wesonga, called me out and took me to his classroom office in Class 5. He started asking me questions about you, how you were faring on, if you ever complained of ill health and all that. All I could tell him was that you had HBP. Immediately, I knew something was wrong. My small mind could not grasp it and kept wandering off wondering why all the questions. I remember the teacher walking out and telling me to wait for him there. He took quite some time, because I remember dozing off. Then he came back and told me to go back to class.

Next thing I hear, school is being closed and we are told to go home and use the back gate. Something kept telling me, that somehow, I was involved in the school’s closing. Just couldn’t figure out how. Out of the gate we all went gladly, but you see, for me to get to our house, I still had to come at some distance close to the front gate of the school. At that not so far distance, I saw this:

Yea, it was my first time, to see that in my life. The cops had come, the body had already been taken, their car was still there, all I could see was that. Still, I knew something had happened and I was the one affected. So, like the 9year old that I was, I just slowly strolled home. Only to find some of my teachers already there and the house filled with people. I just walked in and as I was going to our room, I hear my sister asking me, “Winnie have you heard what has happened?” She was crying in the bathroom. I just said yes. Nobody had told me anything but I knew you were gone. Just like that, you collapsed and died at the gate before you could even say hi. Sometimes, I wonder what it is you wanted to tell me. I know you had missed me, just wanted to see me, wanted to hug me, maybe even carry me, you loved doing that. But that day, all that was never to be.

Then, after the burial, we had to move back to Nairobi, where mum took good care of us. Maybe I have never really mourned for you, I always try to block the painful things in my life, it’s what I do with mum too. So today, let me do so. You were a very loving, caring, industrious, smart dad. Someone recently told me, you truly are a lecturer’s daughter. That made me smile, made me think of you, made me thank God for you and all that you imparted in me in that short period of time you were with us.  It’s from you that I got the “reading thing”. I remember always going to your bookshelf and reading stuff that was way beyond me. I read “Things Fall Apart”  in Class 3 plus other stuff. You inculcated that in me and your dream for me was to reach University level and be the best. Trust me that stuck with me all through my life and it hurt when I couldn’t go to campus because mum had just passed on the previous year when I was doing my K.C.S.E and there was no one to cater for the fees. It hurt so bad, seeing other people, my friends mostly, even those who had failed going to colleges and campuses, and I was just at home. Nobody knew, but I was so devastated.

Here’s where the twist is. When you died, we were all confused, mum really tried to be strong through it all and made sure we all went to school, had the best and finished school, single handedly. She taught us alot, but today it’s about you. When you left, we knew we had lost our only dad, the greatest man in our lives. I knew I was alone, no father figure anymore. No more feeling of your strong arms holding me and carrying me into the air. No more running to you in the evening after school and us discussing about how school was, what I got in the different subjects. No more. I knew it had all ended there. Till I met one who is more than a father figure. One who calls me child and one who loves me more than I could ever think of. One who says that when I was in my mother’s womb He knew me. One who says he is always watching over me and never slumbers. One who I can talk to about any and everything, when I met that man, then I found peace.

I know you tried your best to be the best father to us, and we appreciate everything. I only wish you knew the one who gave you that parenting job before you left us. God only knows where your soul is right now. I thought it was the end of me when you left me, then mum followed, but God was just orchestrating stuff for His glory. Now, looking back, I thank God for all that has happened, albeit with some hint of grief. For if all these hadn’t happened, I don’t know where I would be. So I managed to go to college, I schooled myself, I know that would have made you proud, I didn’t go to campus and I didn’t become a lawyer. God had other plans. Now, now am a fully grown woman, 26years old. And all I can say is, were it not for my heavenly father, I don’t know where I would be. This far, the Lord has brought me, this far,  Lord hath kept us.

He carried me, in places where even your strong arms could never have carried me. He has seen me through tough and trying times that I never thought I would come out from. He has been my anchor, my joy and  my peace. Now I can smile, now I can walk confidently, because I am not alone. He says, “He shall never leave me, nor forsake” you don’t know how sweet and comforting that is. His promises are sure, He never fails. That is my God, that is my Father. So to all who have lost their dads, there is one who is more closer. To all whose dads are absentees, run to him who said He knit you together in your mother’s womb. To all who don’t feel loved by your dads, run to the one who has adopted us into his family and given us the Spirit of sonship by which we cry out Abba Father. To all who don’t know Him as a Father, develop a relationship with Him. He is your peace and He calls you child.

Run to your Father. His arms are always open wide. He never turns His face away from His children. He gives us all of Him. Run to Him. Let Him be your anchor, let Him be your everything. Let Him wipe away all the tears, all the fears, all the pain. Let Him carry your load, that’s how loving He is. The Almighty is our Father. May you learn to see Him that way. To God be the glory.

Your Lovely Daughter,