Archive for February, 2012

I know not what tomorrow holds, I know not how the day will end

My afflictions are ever before me and they have weighed me down

My oppressors are upon me and wickedness seems to travail

I have become frail from the turmoil that rages within my soul

My body is worn out and the grave is so near me

My mind has stopped functioning and I can only hear echoes of people gloating over me

The people who were close to me, the ones I regarded as brothers, have left

I am all alone and in pain with no one to turn to

Like Habakkuk, I cry out, ‘How long, how long, before you listen to me

My foes have become my master and my enemies are at ease

Bitterly I weep at night tears are upon my cheeks

No one is near to comfort me, no one to restore my spirit

Like an enemy you have strung your bow and your right hand is ready

My eyes fail from weeping I am in torment within and my heart is poured out

Like Jeremiah, I say, I have seen affliction by the rod of your wrath

Then suddenly, I am reminded of your love

I am reminded how it is because of your love that I am not consumed, your mercies never fail

I say you are my portion and I will wait for you

I am reminded that you do not cast off men for ever, though you bring grief, you will yet show compassion

For who can speak and have it happen unless you have decreed it

I trust in you Oh Lord for my times are in your hands

Your plans stand firm forever and all things will work for my good because I have been called to your purpose

Whom have I in heaven but you, my flesh and heart may fail but you are my strength and my portion

Though you’ve made me see troubles many and bitter, you will yet restore my life again

Be at rest Oh my soul for the Lord has been good to you, For your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path

My soul waits for the Lord and in His word I put my hope, For he has exalted above all things, His Word and His Name

I rejoice Oh Lord because all the days ordained for me were written in your book

Like Jeremiah, you knew me before you even formed me, How comforting that is to my soul

I rejoice because you are faithful to all your promises and loving towards all you have made

You uphold all those who fall and lift up all who are bowed down

Therefore, I will say like the Psalmist,

It is good for me that I have been afflicted for it has brought me closer to you

And a broken and contrite heart Oh Lord you do not despise

Truly, Godly sorrow leads to repentance

And so, I will wait for you, I will wait for you

My lament will lead to praise.

Grace and Peace


MY WEDDING GOWN (Inspired by Ngare Kariuki).

My wedding’s coming up, I am so excited my heart is palpitating, D-Day is almost here

I know it’s supposed to be white, that’s what people wear on their wedding day

I know just the kind of design that I want, all that is remaining is the tailor’s signature

It seemed like yesterday when I was just a girl, but now am a woman and about to be given in marriage

Very soon I will be someone’s wife and I will call them husband, Oh how sweet the thought

Funny thing is, I don’t have wedding jitters for mine, is the perfect husband

It’s always been said that weddings are for the ladies for the men it’s just another formality process

Interesting though is that my groom wants to be involved in every step of the way

He is the main person behind the wedding planning, He is the one who actually picked out the dress for me

From the day He proposed to me and showed me His book of love, He has never ceased to be by my side

Not even once, has His love for me been quenched, Even the days when I feel like I have’ fallen out of love’ with Him,

Daughters of the city, rejoice with me

Many a times I look at Him and wonder what it is He sees in me, but each time I do that I disappear in His deep ocean of love that is portrayed through his eyes

His abounding love is all I feel

He has been my strength, my joy, my rock, my fortress and it ain’t a cliche’

My beloved has carried me on His wings of love, wouldn’t trade Him for another

For another cannot His heart dare match

It’s a bit scary being a wife, a lot is on you and a lot is expected

My beloved assures me He will never leave nor forsake me, He will be with me through it all

Sometimes just thinking of Him speak quietens my soul, there’s something about His voice, something about His choice of words

So my beloved has picked a wedding dress for me, He wants it to happen His way, He wants it white not because society does it but because it’s what pleases Him

Because to Him it’s more than a dress, more than an occassion, the dress transcends the depths of my heart, and He wants to envision my heart when He looks at the dress

Women of the city, I cannot begin to explain the beauty of the dress, It’s design is beyond my ken, The material was truly imported for it cannot be found on earth

I look at it and I am awed, sometimes I dread wearing it for it is too white

Lest I dirtify it

But that’s what my beloved wants and the twist is this, He wants me to wear it every single day

A reminder that He bought it for me and what it means for the both of us

I don’t have to worry about it getting dirty, for my beloved says even if it gets dirty, he will launder it with His handmade detergent and make it white as snow

I don’t doubt my beloved, He says even if it gets red as crimson, He will still whiten it

So my wedding day is fast approaching and I have already started wearing the dress

So that I can get used to it and learn how not to make it dirty quickly

Even though He promises to clean it everytime it gets dirty, I still have a responsibility to take care of it, good care of it

And I am glad that my beloved is still by my side, holding the dress for me, making sure it doesn’t trip me, or weigh me down, nor no mirk enters it

He has drawn a hedge over the places I walk so that nothing will tear my dress apart

He has sent His men to watch over me for there are many who want to snatch the dress from me, that should tell you how precious the dress is

My beloved knows me and I know Him and the only way He will spot me out is if I wear the gown He bought me

If when He comes He will find me wearing it and it being spotlessly clean

Let Him never find me without it, for then I will be naked and in shame and He will pass me over because I did not keep His pledge of love

My wedding gown is white, my wedding gown is pure, my wedding gown is just the perfect fit for it was bought at a price

A price I can never repay

May I be alert and watch over it so that no one will take it from me

For that is how my beloved will distinguish me

Rev. 16:15

Christ is coming for His bride do not loose your gown

Grace and Peace




The events leading to this note began last week when I overheard a believer talking to a non-believer about issues he had with another believer.  I thought to myself, that is wrong, so wrong, you are not supposed to share family issues with outsiders. They don’t know how it works, they will not be able to help and if anything, they would rather stay away from that family. You are showing them how disconnected you guys are as a family. Then two days after that I had a dream at night where I got the title. Yes, God usually gives me topics to write on through dreams at times. I remember wondering how I will go about it. Then a day after that, something personal happened to me that made me feel like sharing it to the whole world and telling them of sins committed against me, then God reminded me, albeit after I had partly shared it, ‘DO NOT HANG YOUR DIRTY LINEN IN PUBLIC.’ That quietened me. Trust God to let you go through something so that you can fully comprehend His point.

So this note is specifically for Christians. One thing I think we need to understand is that we are ONE FAMILY.We are many but we are one body in Christ. Christ talks of his church, not his churches, because he looks at us as one. He talks of his bride not brides to show oneness. He has chosen us out of the world (Jn 15:19) and we are his offspring (Acts 17:26). If God is our father and we are his children then by inference we are a family, we are one, one blood flowing in us. The blood of Jesus Christ.

The unity of believers is a very important thing because Christ said is what will show the world that we are his, cause them to know Him and that they may know that God loves us just as He loves Christ (Jn 17:23). You still wonder why I am talking about unity of believers. A family divided cannot stand. So if we are a family, we need to be united. Christ knew the importance of this and that’s why He repeatedly prayed for that in Jn 17. Christ’ prayer was that all believers may be one just as He and the Father are one. He prayed for complete unity, not partial, not convenience but complete unity. In Rom 15:5-7, we see Paul praying for the same by asking God to give us a spirit of unity among ourselves as we follow Christ so that with one heart and mouth we may glorify God. He further says, accept one another just as Christ accepted you inorder to to bring praise to God. So christian unity is a prerequisite and we sin every time we are divided against each other or sow seeds of discord.

The book of Acts is the best example of how christian unity is lived out. Acts 2:44 says all believers were together and had everything in common. No one lacked anything because they shared everything. All of them were in one heart and mind (Acts 4:32). Imagine if every organ of the body acted on its own accord without synchronising with the brain and the rest of the body wouldn’t it be disastrous? The left leg would want to go where the right leg doesn’t and what do you think happens when both legs become obstinate, the person is as good as dead. That is what happens when we work against each other and allow discord to rule us. I stress again, WE ARE ONE BODY. Let us not cause God’s name to be blasphemed (Rom 2:24).  That’s why in 1 Cor 12:12, we are told of the body being a unit though it is made up of many parts. We were all baptised by one Spirit into one body. Further along it says God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honour to the parts that lacked it so that there should be NO DIVISION in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. If one part suffers, every part suffers and vice versa, just as it is with our physical bodies.This can also be seen in Gal 3:26 – 27 where we are told there’s neither Greek nor Jew, slave nor free, male nor female for we are all one in Christ.

In Christs’ death, he became our peace destroying the barrier between Jews and Gentiles the dividing wall of hostility bringing those who were far away nearer for His purpose was to create for Himself one new man out of the two, thus making peace. So we are no longer aliens but fellow citizens with God’s people and members of his household (Eph.2:11-22). Ephesians 4 talks of unity in the body of Christ. For we have one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father over all. So we need to live a life worthy of the calling we have received. It talks of of the body (not bodies) of Christ being built up until we all reach UNITY in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature attaining the whole measure of the fulness of Christ. For from Him, the whole body joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love as each part does its work. But how is all this possible?

Love, the greater gift, the most excellent way (1 Cor 13). 1 Pet.3:8 says, above all, love each other because love covers over a multitude of sins. Love is what will cause us to be patient with each other, bear with each other, correct, rebuke and teach in love, love is what will hold us.

Onto divisions in the church. 1Cor chapter 1, Paul begins it with an appeal to the brothers that all maybe in agreement so that there may be no divisions among them and that they may be perfectly united in mind and thought. For it is disagreements that mostly cause discord. So he asks them this question, ‘Is Christ divided?’ That should come to mind every time division occurs. Paul equates divisions in the church to worldliness in Chapter 3 since jealousy and quarrels are still among us showing that we are still worldly. What is still reiterated in Eph.4 when we are united, we show maturity. Then in chapter 6, Paul boldly dares anyone who has a dispute with another to take it before the ungodly for judgement instead of before the saints and this is the gist of my note. In chapter 5:12-13, he asks, ‘What business is it of mine to judge those outside of the church? Are you not to judge those inside? God will judge the outside.’ So by inference, the world should not even be hearing our disputes leave alone settling them. In chapter 6 he strongly condemns lawsuits among believers and says it is a sign that we are already defeated. He instructs them to appoint judges, even men of little account to settle disputes among believers. In Romans 12:2 we are exhorted not to conform to the patterns of this world. When we parade our issues in public the same way non-believers do, aren’t we conforming to the world?

In Rom 14:19, we are told, ‘let us therefore, make every effort to do what leads to peace and mutual edification. Eph.4:26 tells us, in your anger, do not sin and do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths but only what is helpful for building up others according to their needs and that it may benefit those who listen, so we see it’s not just about us. There are the listeners too. James also echoes the same sentiments in 1:19 by telling us to be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry. In chapter 4, he says fights and quarrels that come from desires that battle within us are what cause divisions. Philippians 2 exhorts us to be united in Christ, by being like minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Not doing anything out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but in humility considering others better than ourselves. That is, having the attitude of Christ and being His imitators. Col 3:12-14 tells us to clothe ourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience, bearing with each other and forgiving just as Christ forgave.

The peace of Christ is supposed to rule in our hearts since as members of one body we have been called to peace. Heb 12:14 echoes the same rule by stating, ‘Make every effort to live in peace with all men and to be holy.’ No bitter root should grow up to cause trouble and defile many but we ought to keep on loving each other as brothers. 2 Tim 4:2 says, correct, rebuke and encourage with great patience and careful instruction, how do we expect the world to do that? Correction is supposed to be biblical.

Then in closing, 1 Pet 3:8-9 says, finally, all of you live in harmony with one another, be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble, do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult but with blessing because to this you were called that you may inherit a blessing.

I pray that this long note, may achieve the purpose for which I have written it, UNITY OF BELIEVERS, and that the Lord Jesus Christ may make us one just as He and the Father are one.


Grace and Peace.




Posted: February 4, 2012 in Poetry

You know we are living in a perverse generation when:

A young daughter can’t sit on his father’s lap while he is driving without us thinking, ‘What is this guy doing to the kid?’

When a man can’t walk with a girl half his age and our first impression be, it’ s the daughter

When fathers have begun looking lustfully at their daughters and actually raping them

When  brothers are being turned on by what their blood sisters are wearing

When house-maids have turned on the kids for their sexual release

When ‘Mpango wa Kando’ has become such a norm that couples are OK with it

When our kids access the internet at a tender age and know most of the porn sites

When pregnancy out of wedlock is no longer an issue (no harm intended)

When abortion is actually a subject of debate

When divorce among couples has become the better option

When dialogue among couples has been left in the hands of the breakfast shows

When money and lots of it is the foundation of our relationships

When homosexuality is rapidly gaining fame in our society

When condoms instead of abstinence has become the message

When Pastors can stand on the pulpit and unite gay marriages

When all the programs on T.V. must have a gay person

When murder and crime are the order of the day

When sons no longer have any respect for their mothers

When marital abuse of any kind no longer elicit sympathy and empathy

When brother kills brother just because of a piece of land

When a jilted lover kills another then kills himself

When one group burns another and watches as they scream

When the fear of God is no longer in man and they have the audacity to call themselves Jehovah

When vulgarity and explicity have become our sit-coms

When women no longer want to dress up but are on a body expose’ mission

When people are no longer content with the Potters’ design and instead prefer Thailand for their aesthetic pleasure

When families are breaking up at a high rate and no one’s noticing

When hearts have become like stone and love no longer exists

That is our generation, how wicked and sinful it is

May God spare us from the on-coming wrath because we believed in His word and repented of our ways

Proverbs 13:34- Righteousness exalts a nation but sin is a disgrace to any people

Let’s pursue righteousness

Grace and Peace


Posted: February 4, 2012 in Thoughts of a Broken Vessel

What if the flowers refused to bloom and instead shrivel and wither away

What if the crops refuse to yield fruit and waste away

What if the cow stopped producing milk and we are forced to take water instead

What if your boss has denied you your wages and you are forced to beg

What if your parents don’t see the good in you but always the bad

What if every man, every woman you love ends up hurting you

What if every business you start never gets to excel

What if your wife doesn’t honour you but looks down on you

What if your husband makes you feel less and less like a woman each day

What if your loneliness seems to get deeper by the day

What if you feel no one can understand you

What if you feel like death would be the perfect answer

What if you, what if I, what if we feel all this

We are always reminded of this in Habakkuk 3:17 – 18

Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vine

Though the olive crops fail and the fields produce no food

Though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls

Yet, I will rejoice in the Lord

I will be joyful in God my Saviour.

Grace and Peace




Posted: February 1, 2012 in broken_pieces

She is the woman who cries out daily from the hurt and pain the husband causes. He has defiled the marital bed and brought home other women. She has no self esteem and doesn’t want to live anymore, but she has to, for the sake of the children. Then there’s the other one who gets beaten up almost daily. The love of her life has turned into a disastrous monster. There are days, she thinks she will die while he is in the act. What’s worse, he beats her even infront of the kids. She doesn’t know how to explain to the kids why daddy beats mummy but she just takes it in hoping things will change. Then comes in the man, who is tired of his wife’s hard-headedness.  It’s like she is the man of the house. She doesn’t respect him, there’s no aspect of submission. She is always nagging him and even compares him with other men. She is not content with what he has to give, conjugal rights have become a luxury. This man has reached his wits end, his pride, totally bruised. There’s no more joy in the relationship, no more love and he just wants out. TO DIVORCE OR NOT TO DIVORCE?

Let me give you an example of someone in the bible who was faced with this challenge and felt it in more ways than one. Hosea. God told him to go marry a prostitute, imagine how it felt and this was because God was delivering a message to the Israelites through him. His wife would always go out and seek other men. However, God told him in Hosea 3 to go show love to his wife again. Meaning his love might have probably grown cold. Then God further told him ‘though she is loved by another and is an adultress, love her as the Lord loves the Israelites. Though they turn to other gods and love the sacred raisin cakes.’ That there, is God showing us, divorce is not an option.

That is also the command of the Lord running through the whole of scripture as far as marriage is concerned. Ephesians 5:22 – 33 talks of husbands having to love their wives just as Christ loved the church and gave Himself up for her to make her HOLY cleansing her by the washing with water through the word and wives are to submit to their husbands as unto the Lord. People have never really understood the gravity of this statement. Then again, you have to be in Christ to get it, for it is in Him we live and move and have our being. Do you know what it means to love your wife as Christ loved the church? It means that when she rebels against you, when she doesn’t submit to you, when her joy is in seeking other men, when she keeps falling over and over again, you still embrace her lovingly and still love her unconditionally. It means you show her mercy and look past her actions. It means not giving up on her or the relationship but always reaching out to her, even laying your life for her.  It means you intercede for her because that is what Christ does for the church in Heb 7:25.  Just as Christ’s relationship with the church is supposed to make her holy as we have seen in Ephesians 5, so is the marriage. The husband and wife should also grow more into Christlikeness in their relationship.

Now to the wife, what does it mean to submit to the husband? Let’s answer that with a question. How do we submit to Christ? He becomes our Lord, we love him and are totally committed to him, we listen to and obey his every word, our life is entwined in his, we do not seek any other because he satisfies us completely and we know we can always call on him and he will be there. That is how we submit to our husbands. Don’t get it twisted though, the idea is not to worship your husband as God but submit to Him in the way God has commanded. Oh how many marriages would be saved if people entered them with God’s perspective and not the worldly one.

Christ himself spoke against divorce in Matthew 5:31. The only reason he gave for divorce is unfaithfulness but even with that, it is still not a clean bill to go ahead and divorce. It is after you have tried everything to make it work and it fails. You might ask, what about the woman who is being beaten daily? My advice would be,  separate from the husband, not divorce the husband. For your own sake and the sake of your children if you have and use that time for intercession.

Malachi 2:3-16 clearly shows just how much God hates divorce. In verse 14-16, He says, ‘I stand as the witness between you and the wife of your youth because you have broken that faith with her, though she is your partner, the wife of your marriage covenant. Has not the Lord made them one? In flesh and spirit they are his. And why one? Because he was seeking a godly offspring. So guard yourself in your spirit and DO NOT break faith with the wife of your youth. I HATE DIVORCE says the Lord God of Israel and I hate a man covering himself with violence as well as his garment, says the LORD Almighty. So GUARD YOURSELF in your spirit and do not break faith.’ That is the word of the Lord. Who are we to break it and do that which God abhors? Imagine if Christ was to divorce himself from us every time we turned away, would we still be alive?

Marriage is a walk, it’s a journey, it’s a battle. Be prepared for it. Enter it with a Godly view and like God has said you have a responsibility to play GUARD YOURSELF how will you do that? By submitting to God, resisting the devil and he will flee James 4:7. I hope this will bring healing to marriages and relationships as we pursue a picture perfect marriage that is marriage that perfectly portrays the relationship between Christ and the church. May God bless you and keep you.